Regardless how sad and lonely it is I often feel to lose the people I love dearly; how painful it is I feel to have our happy moments stuck within my tiny head without ever being able to experience it again together -my mom and dad, and the whole family-; how scary and trembling it is to experience insecurity, financially, emotionally and psychologically; how restless it is to be fully dependent on my own shaking feet;  I always try to remind myself (though sometimes I realized it might be a rationalization and I’m just doing this to make myself feel better), that I am given the chance to experience this in order to acquire knowledge, the knowledge that –perhaps- not all of the people would get in my age .

I realized that knowledge can be found anywhere and everywhere, from the books I read, the people I meet, the events I attend, the movies I watch, the songs I listen, the grass, the skies, even through my darkest hours and sorrow. And it is for people who are currently out of their comfort zones the chances to learn more from life as a whole is given. Though I admit I often get very very very tired and the thoughts of giving up often come up, I must continuously reminding myself that I am given the chance to actually live life; hence I need to learn to embrace.

I just hope I will understand better someday.

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”

— Elisabeth Kübler-Ross